Hard to believe, but here we are. Our little Lizzy had her first day of Kindergarten. Whew........that went fast! Our baby one minute, then a speedy toddler, then a curious pre-schooler, and now a school-girl. In a blur.....now we're here. In these "big" moments, I often don't get too outwardly emotional. All my friends kept saying how much they were going to cry on the first day of school, and all I felt was disbelief. I kept thinking, "And now we're here. How bizarre that this day has come. So weird.....but so right." I didn't feel too "sad." I felt happy for Lizzy- happy that she's such a vibrant, full-of-life, ready to learn girl. Happy that she's had such a wonderful life, full of love. Happy that she's always done so well in any situation- truly a "bloom where you're planted" girl. Happy for this new path, new friends, and new experiences. But elementary school is.....different. It's serious, it's the big-time, it's no-nonsense. You can't be late, you must be prepared, there are lots of rules and expectations. But the hardest for me is the invisible wall that is now set-up between "us" (our family) and "them" (Lizzy, her teachers, and classmates). And when did Lizzy stop being on our team? Now there's not quite so much time for hugs and kisses in our good-byes. Now, we don't know every detail that happened during the day. Now......we're a little bit separated. The first wrenching step away, tiny though it is, has been taken, and you can feel the tug at your heart that that tear has made. Even though you're happy, it's mixed with a tiny bit of pain- or nostalgia, or wistfulness, of whatever you want to call it. The only remedy is to embrace it all the best you can, accept the change and look for the new beauty all around you, and enjoy the ride as best as you can- no one lets you stop for a time-out, no matter how much you want one!
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